Sunday, December 14, 2003

i'm not sure what is it about computers, and the way they twist your mind; it's long after i wanted to go to bed, and i keep moving in aimless circles across the sites i usually frequent. nothing interesting there: books i will not buy, articles i will not read. yet i go there.
it's easier in Michael's flat: he has heating, nice ambience lights, a DIY hi-techy desk, a laptop and broadband. A guess: this is the only squat in London with broadband. well, maybe in East London, and maybe not even this. you see, he's not paying for it, so why assume he's the only one? no scam, just one of these offers from these slimey octapus-like net companies that lurk in the plumbing of this thing on which we find ourselves inscribed.
i promised S to wake up early. i better turn the un-invited irish folk music that appeared suddenly in the background, and go

Friday, December 05, 2003

i think i have temprature. oh god. things don't work out today and had to abandon all illicit plans. until next week. bummer.
already on the way to the library i noticed that something was strange. cycling along the canal, i could see many ducks going about their buisness, and a cormorant was hasitly pacing, almost running. but none of them were in the water. they were making alarming sounds.
later i saw a squirrel. almost run over it. wait a minute i thought, aren't you supposed to be hybernating, or semi-hibernating? is it the last rounds to collect food before sleep? it's december mate.
then i saw many more of them.
the book i'm reading at the moment tells me that in the middle ages squirrels symbolised the male member, and there's a tale about a girl seeing a dick for the first time, she's told it's a squirrel so naturally she fondles it.
what does it say about me.
i'm really almost delirous and have to find all these books now so i get something done over the weekend. so ips ips

Thursday, December 04, 2003

yes. the last time was more than a month ago. which raises the question, am i serious in this relationship. oh well. i wanto, really wanto,
but you know.

I took Gary to the wholesale fruit and veg market today. He's writing an essay about skipping for college, and came with me to see the best place to skip in London, but much more than that: the place where you understand what Globalisation is about, oh doesn't this sound all too didactic, but hey: New Covent Garden Market: it's the world as you don't know it, it's the present future, the future present, it's radicalizing, empowering, bringing you down to earth, showing you the cogs deep inside the machine, opening the hidden closet, undressing the truth and hanging it to dry, sobering you up and making your fingers stink a bit, it's all those cliches and more, and much more.
and it's where i get my food from, occasionaly. Now that i live in the East End I don't go there very often.

amm, it seems to be a South-London-Squatting word, it's not known to brits outside this small and cozy community. as UK residents know a skip is where you dump stuff you can do without, ie dumpster. and as with similar verbs, to peel is to take the peel off, to joint is to separte the joints and to skip is to take things out of the skip, or more generally, out of the trash. simple.

we didn't find much today. it was slow, and there was some nasty energy in the air. didn't find much is two panniers full with
huge bag of yellow peppers
parsley, fresh mint,
salad, roket,
red onions
probably forgot something.

I was going to write something about the superiority of middle eastern mint, that is, na'na as it's known in Arabic/Hebrew and the whole complex issue for me that is skipping veggies from israel, ("problematised homesickness: the smell of Israeli mint in a London skip" i can see an academic paper here). yes, the whole thing, familiar smells from home, unwanted produce, unwanted people, immigrant Thai workers working for a kibbutz on the eve of economic bankrupcy, the whole boycot issue on "illegal israel"). but let's leave that for the moment.

I have this idea, filming a documentary in the market: no explanations, just quotes from Marx, with emphasis on the fluid, ever-flowing and changing natuer of capital. "all that is solid will turn to compost". #

and after that, well, not much. gales on Waterloo bridge. almost blew me away into the Thames they did

Friday, October 24, 2003

-- DEJAVU --
a strange city and a colder October, but here i am, again, in a university computer lab, the quiet murmur of the keyboards creeps through my ears, a russian red-hair guy playing chess on the net, and overheated lumpiness rests in the air; the occasional unexplained blip. here it went again behind me: blip.
how personal is this blog going to be, i wonder. issues: like me and S, and parents, and sex life, and friends? probably not.
but we'll see.

a few false starts, but no breakthrough; better leave it like that. some other time. Happy Winter: it has arrived

Wednesday, October 22, 2003

it took me some time, but i finally made it last night. grabbed the two locks, S.'s multi-tool and the headlight, and the phone, and off i went, 11pm at night, on my bike. there was a lot of traffic on Commercial Road for this time of night and it was bitterly cold, an expression they use much too much here.
I was going to the old house to see if the bailiffs had come, and if not, take the lock and make a few phone calls, if the line still worked. we were waiting for the bailiffs that morning to see our own eviction, but then they were late, and wanted to tat some tat from Ed's house, which was getting evicted as well that morning. We managed to take two chairs and a stereo. they had left two dolls on the front door step; a teddy bear and some other muppet-animal. both looked hopelessly cute, as they were wating for the bailiffs to come. Ed had left the front door unlocked.
Now, 11 at night, i cycled past their house: no teddy bears, just an ugly metal door, and a sitexed window. the house was secure, and definitly empty.
It took me another couple of minutes to get to our house. took the next turn left and then left again. a police car was parked there by the homeless hostell, humming to itself. no coppers inside; and as i was staring, i saw another cop-car approaching. did somebody nick a police car and left it down the road? i had no intention of lingering about to find out. the old house was boarded up; they have there, i thought. so they probably changed the lock. i didn't bother checking, cycled home. my nose gets really runny in this cold weather. i hate it.

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

there's a cigarette but in my toilet, hanging from the wall. almost falling but obviously not yet, been there for three years. obviously one of the workers put it out on the wall, as he was taking a shit. i can see him: finishing his cigarette, pressing it against the wall and rising up to finish his work. noises from the school yard coming up, the kids are playing. was he one of the workers putting the sitex on the window, or someone else? it's yellow and disgusting but i leave it there for some reason. i want to remind myself that i haven't cleaned there yet, and that i should. i guess it's also there to catch my feelings - having just opened this house, and things are still hanging in the air. for how long, this house? three-four months, as usual?
the cold weather makes me very tired. i feel exhusted from just cycling down the road. it's the temprature drop, prbbly: you're just not used to it yet, i think. soon it will be colder.

Friday, October 03, 2003

this is my first post.
it will be short because the library's closing and i need to get my bike out.
god this is so exhibitionist - not that i'd know how to spell that...
hope the BL will allow this mischief to go on.